His-story

She gave him the gift that keeps on giving

So he just trying to keep on living

Had to explain it to his siblings

But he can’t even understand his feelings

Doing his best to cope with it

He gets higher than the ceiling

He pop pills and smoke dope with it

He probably about to be evicted

He can’t work as much as he used to

Can’t keep his grades up at his new school

He has so much he’s going through

But he wears designer clothes and a smile to fool you

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A lot makes me sad

Not much makes me happy

I like playing games

And spending time with family

I hate pretending

I hate having to be “manly”

I like being in Atlanta

I like a certain Cancer

I hate that my dad left me

I hate that her mom left her

It’s no one’s fault really

Though I feel like most thing fall on me

Maybe I’m right about everything

Or maybe I’m just bad at overthinking

New Decade Same Shit

This year seems a lot like the last

Not a bad thing it’s just what I’ve noticed

I’m still locked in

I’m still focused

Think I’m Ruffin and everybody else is Otis

It’s all about me

I’m who they come to see

If I stop then everything else gets messy.

Keeping the family on track like a train

Peace and prosperity the only things on my brain

Happy New Year

It’s a new year but

I didn’t promise a new me

I’m just hoping for a better year

I just started to cope with my fears

I’m truly afraid of commitment

I think I foster some resentment

I find myself relentless

In the amount of attempts that

I give when I can’t get with it.

Dreaming of Drowning

Maybe because I’m an Aquarius

Maybe it has nothing to do with this

I’m not sure but…

The white capped waves wade and I am calmed

Any issues handed down are palmed

Worries are beached and their own to each

Soft, gritty, serenity below my feet

I am weak…

But the lady of the water carries me

For eternity I wish to be covered entirely

So the lady of the water marries me

Soothed by her commotion

Comforted by her motion

Waving in her wetness

Consummation with the lady of the ocean

First legs…then eyes opened

I am awoken…